“It will pass”
Today, I had a dream that left a profound impact on me. In it, I lost my cat, and another black kitten was with her. Whenever I tried to catch one, the other would slip away, creating an endless loop of frustration and despair. I found myself crying deeply in the dream, overwhelmed by the fear of losing something so precious. When I woke up, I rushed to my cat, Casca, and hugged her tightly. The thought of losing her is unbearable.
This dream reminded me of a passage from Sylvia Plath, where she gazes at a fig tree and sees her future reflected in its leaves. As she contemplates her choices, she realizes that the impending fall may lead to a barren branch—an uncertain future filled with loss. Her struggle to understand and control her destiny resonated with me; I, too, find myself rushing through time, eager for healing and clarity.
In my pursuit of peace, I often forget to savor the present moment. I get caught up in saving, fixing, and worrying about everything in this world, fearing that this frantic energy might cause me to lose everything, just as I did in my dream. However, amidst this chaos, I am profoundly grateful for the people around me—who provide love and community.
The pain we feel can be overwhelming, yet it serves as a powerful reminder of a life richly lived—a life filled with love and deep connections. Each tear we shed signifies experiences that truly matter. We must honor the journey, understanding that all things must come to an end, including our own lives. Embracing this reality can bring a profound sense of peace.
I long to detach from the material world, finding gratitude in the simplest moments, even in the pain that shapes us.
During this time, I often think of the resilience of a Palestinian mother who, despite the unimaginable loss of her children to war, continues to find strength and gratitude in her heart. Her courage inspires me to seek that same serenity—a tranquility that rises above life’s chaos. My deepest wish is to cultivate this inner peace, regardless of my circumstances or the world around me. In embracing both joy and sorrow, I hope to discover a profound sense of gratitude for every moment I am given..
Time will continue to pass, whether I rush it or embrace it, and that realization should be enough for me to find contentment. I strive to cultivate a sense of peace within, even if it means faking it until I truly feel it. In this pursuit, I hope to learn to cherish each moment and to understand that the journey, with all its uncertainties, is what truly matters. Through gratitude and acceptance of both joy and pain, I can find a deeper connection to life and the people I cherish.